The light that shines above is the hope of my life, last night was crap in one way yet amazing in all the others. If I'm the one looking you're the one ignorant. Of what's happening around you all I need is to show you, that the one you always forgot has been hanging there for a while, seeing the defeat coming near as each year passes by I crumble into pieces of what you thought were tears of joy. Seeing what's about to hit me gives me the strength to bear. Imagining a whole new world out of the fantasies one dreams of is not what comes out altogether. Mapping a route in your life is useless unless you can control what's about to happen. I toss around frustrated all night, thinking about how it triggered in just a week. Emotions can be controlled but the feeling within is what hides inside all the time.
With the sudden worry of you vanishing, I realize it's only lousy hope that's taking me nowhere. Over-thinking becomes my weakness. I had the facts in front of me yet I refused to believe them.
Then I finally realize what's in front can't change just because I want it to.
So I take one last long look at you, take a deep breath to start a new journey without looking back at what could have been the best thing of my life. I turn around. Leave the battlefield, surrender without a fight.
These stars I've made in my heart will now help me navigate life, because When Stars are My Keepers, never can I go wrong.
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