She thought about it all the time, she could not remember the last time she had stopped thinking about it for than 5 minutes. For all she knew, the thought was always there at the back of her head somewhere hidden yet frequently exposed. Something she just could not seem to get rid of.
She lay on the bed in the dark staring at whatever she could make out of the ceiling, she didn't know who she was talking to but the words just came out. There was nothing she said that would make sense to anyone listening but it was a blissful feeling for her to get rid of the load she was carrying, to hear her own voice saying things she always just thought of and could never really speak out.
She knew 'Here' was nothing but a hollow space.
She took long walks under the beautiful night sky occasionally, looking up at the black blanket filled with the oh-so-beautiful stars she once wished upon...Actually she would still do, there was still a part of her which would do anything it could for her.
She walked for a while not sure of what to think about. She let the occasional tears roll down. They felt hot on her cheeks cooled by the wind.
It didn't matter what anyone said or did, it didn't matter what they tried to make her understand. Infact, she didn't care because this was what she had made her life into. Might have been nothing significant at all but it was everything that ever mattered to her and it always will not matter where life takes her. But then waht really is significant? Nothing, nothing at all.
For once she doesn't care what happens to her. She doesn't give a shit about the damned reality. All her life she lied in the perfect fantasy, a dream world of her own, just as perfect as she had planned it out. She stepped into reality and for a while it almost felt the same. But soon enough, it showed it's true colors. She was fast to accept, even if she did not believe, that everything could not be the same, but now it was her strength and belief which put her on a road to look for that perfect world in her imperfect life. She is now on that quest, and is sure not to be disappointed. Because glistening tears do nothing but increase sorrow, the pain someone once put into you.
She lay on the bed in the dark staring at whatever she could make out of the ceiling, she didn't know who she was talking to but the words just came out. There was nothing she said that would make sense to anyone listening but it was a blissful feeling for her to get rid of the load she was carrying, to hear her own voice saying things she always just thought of and could never really speak out.
She knew 'Here' was nothing but a hollow space.
She took long walks under the beautiful night sky occasionally, looking up at the black blanket filled with the oh-so-beautiful stars she once wished upon...Actually she would still do, there was still a part of her which would do anything it could for her.
She walked for a while not sure of what to think about. She let the occasional tears roll down. They felt hot on her cheeks cooled by the wind.
It didn't matter what anyone said or did, it didn't matter what they tried to make her understand. Infact, she didn't care because this was what she had made her life into. Might have been nothing significant at all but it was everything that ever mattered to her and it always will not matter where life takes her. But then waht really is significant? Nothing, nothing at all.
For once she doesn't care what happens to her. She doesn't give a shit about the damned reality. All her life she lied in the perfect fantasy, a dream world of her own, just as perfect as she had planned it out. She stepped into reality and for a while it almost felt the same. But soon enough, it showed it's true colors. She was fast to accept, even if she did not believe, that everything could not be the same, but now it was her strength and belief which put her on a road to look for that perfect world in her imperfect life. She is now on that quest, and is sure not to be disappointed. Because glistening tears do nothing but increase sorrow, the pain someone once put into you.
this is for me? 0.o
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